mynameisash's Diaryland Diary

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sick cycle anemia

I can't believe I'm back here, telling my problems to this box again. It's surreal. it feels like no time at all has passed.

I'm so very different now though diary. I have experienced a little bit more life than the last time we really spoke. I've loved, lost, loved, lost, lost, lost, and am still loving.

I cry so much, I'm trying to learn to stop.
But basically.
I'm finding that bottling this stuff up isn't working. I'm having a hard time knowing what to do.

I can have anything.
and i dont know what I want.
And nothing appears to make me happy.
And I dont believe in depression.
And I know I just have to fix myself.
But somedays i dont see the point or the motivation.

I'm stuck in a fucking sick cycle.

4:59 p.m. - January 09, 2008

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